Who Am I?

Today I have not been feeling too well. I have been feeling a bit under the weather. I am not sure if it is a cold or sinus infection. But I have been feeling a lack of physical energy. I've been feeling a bit weak and it feels like my bones and joints are hurting. At one point I feel like this is a bit of an energetic upload. And upload is a source of energy given by the Galactic Federation of Light which normally helps with raising your energy vibrations. Depending upon the situation that is going on. It might be a way to lower your vibrations a little bit it just depends upon the person. I had plans to go to a town called Lewes. To just walk around and see the historic sites. We were probably going to go to a Halloween shop. We also wanted to walk through a store called Tuesday Morning. That is right next to Walmart so we may as well have went into Walmart to. By we I mean my wife and I along with our Spirit family. My spirit family is the deceased human spirits who we have come into contact with. They are the ones that chose to stick around, and not cross over. This is for various reasons, but the most usual reason is because they still want to experience certain aspects of life. These range from kids to certain level of adults. By doing these activities they are participating as well. So I look more forward to doing this stuff more for them rather than myself. With me being sick if I cannot make myself feel better then we might have to reschedule. This is something that we scheduled last week and we have all been looking forward to it. So I am hoping that I feel better.

I have been having so much on my mind lately. I talked about it with my wife the other night. Most of it it's just my thoughts on Humanity as a whole. How it seems like humanity is so distracted. This is by everything such as social media, stuff about celebrities, and just a bunch of other stuff. I just feel like all this distraction is causing Humanity not to awaken as fast as they could. I have also been thinking about how Humanity seems to react to the holidays. For example Black Friday and how people act during that day. The holidays and how it is so commercialized. It's like they would rather act like fools when it comes to buy a gift. This is even how they act when it comes to buying food for the holidays. Sometimes more often than not they go overboard. The holidays are supposed to be about family. Spending time with loved ones. This is whether or not you have gifts or not. For most people who do not have money to really get gifts, they will just decorate and have whatever food that they can afford. Or whatever food they get given to them by donation places. To me I feel like that is the true Spirit of the holiday season. So many people are distracted with the commercial aspect of it. They forget that as long as you are spending time with your loved ones, even if it is just sitting around or watching TV. That is what it is all about. This is also with children nowadays. They want the biggest and the next best thing that is out. A lot of families might not be able to afford it, but they will go through whatever it is to get it. Probably because they want to make their kid happy, and if it takes something so mundane to make your child happy then in my opinion obviously you have raised a spoiled child. In my opinion. Sometimes I feel like you shouldn't even ask your child or anybody for that matter what it is they want for Christmas. It should come from the heart. But it's not. Here lately this has made me feel like I do not even want to celebrate the holidays. I feel like it's not even worth it. I like to decorate and I also like to cook. But The gift-giving part is very overrated. With all the new stuff coming out nowadays, and everybody wanting it, I just feel like it's a waste of money. Everything is priceless until you put a price to it. In my opinion A lot of the stuff that is coming out is not worth the price that they put to it. 

I've also just been thinking about who I am. Really who am I, Dwayne, on a spiritual level who am I. I know what I have learned so far my life. I know what I have been told so far in my life. This is about my connections with the Norse gods and goddesses. The Greek gods and goddesses as well. I have also been told that I am somehow connected with what is called the green men. But that part right there is for another blog post. I have also been contemplating what I have done in past lives. Lately I have been doubting it. I've just been thinking did I really do that and am I really this person whom I have come to feel like I was.But that is just more due to the restrictions of being what I was then too being in this lifetime now. I feel very restricted in this current and carnation. I feel restricted in this lifetime. This is because I have not incarnated on Earth in an extremely long time. My soul is used to life elsewhere. Stuff that maybe I was able to do then I cannot do in this lifetime, and it is making me think why? Like why is it so hard to harness those powers and abilities that I once had in a past life and other incarnations. Why is it so hard for me to harness those powers and abilities to use in this lifetime? Especially if it can be used to help people, and I believe it could. That's basically everything I talked about with my wife. I have not brought these questions up to my Spirit guides and my soul group. I feel like it is because I want to search for my own answers. This is why I tried to spend a portion of my day meditating. When I lay down in the middle of the day I tried to meditate but I often fall asleep. Sometimes I don't remember anything, even if I have unlocked some answers to questions I would not remember them. So who am I really? My name is Dwayne Elliott and I was born on April 30th. I am a Taurus and an Earth Element. I love the outdoors and nature. I was born in New Jersey and moved to Sussex County Delaware when I was 8 years old and I have been here since then. I love living near the water and love living near nature. I am a Greenman and Shaman in heart.

The Darkside

This is a short story of how my life was some years back. These things I wrote are exactly how I felt. I hope you all enjoy my life journey. Feel free to comment. 

      From the very beginning she was there guiding me and protecting me. However I refused to see. Maybe I didn't want to see. I wasn't ready to see. She is my guardian angel. As a result from not following her I walked down the wrong road. Life meant very little to me. No rules, no consequences and no regrets. One thing that I learned was everything comes with a price. I felt like I had sold my soul to the devil. That’s when it all started a descent to my own hell. It felt like there were demons following me wherever I went. Begging me and forcing me to do wrong and as a result I did. I tried to forget my past but it cloned me, haunted me and wouldn't let me go. Now I stand face to face with my demons. It was almost like death surrounded me; I could see it, touch it and smell it.

      My worst nightmares were beginning to come true. It was like the more they talked the more I would listen, I followed and I became one. There was a dark cloud hovering over my life and the sun couldn't break through. But when it did break through it never shined fully. It came in a beam and whoever that beam of light hit that person had to spread that among others. That beam never touched me. By the age of 10 I was one with the devil. He lived in me and I lived in him. My nightmares were now reality. The voices in my head continued to talk. I was at the point where I didn't care about anything or anyone including myself. I started to steal from stores and from people. The people I stole from were young, old, rich and from those just as broke as myself. I was cold-hearted and reckless. I was on the road to destruction, a road to nowhere.

      I was the devil's Advocate. I started drinking, smoking and doing drugs. Every day it was the same thing day in and day out. I continued to run with the devil for many years. Until that one day when I decided to stop running, that was the day my life changed. That was March 28, 2002. The day my grandmother died. That was the day when I had a constant fight with the devil, and he was beating me badly. He still wanted me to do wrong but I refused and the beatings got worse. I wanted to give in to him but instead I turned to the lord for help. I prayed and asked him to take my hand, guide me, to hide me and protect me from the devil. It was then he didn't do what I asked him to do. Instead he took me by the hand and gave me the strength and courage to fight back. That’s when that beam of light shined on me and I spread that light to many people that day.

      From that day on I've been walking with the lord. But the devil has his ways of trying to win you back. He comes in many shapes and sizes. One of the greatest tricks the devil ever did was convincing the world he didn’t exist. He has tried to win me back many of times to help him do his dirty work. But I didn't listen I just did what the Lord did and I turned my cheek. But every now and then he still comes to me with offers that I know I would have to wait for from the lord. But good things come to those who wait so I decided to run with the lord and not with the devil. Since I decided to put my life in the lord's hands and walk with him I have now become what some people would call God's Son. As God’s Son my life has been a lot better than it has ever been. He has changed my life around and I am so grateful for that. There are times I feel like giving up but I talk to him and my fiancé and they both make me realize that giving up is not an option. They tell me to have hope and keep faith and always remember that you must always go through the dark to get to the light. 

The Meaning Of The Number 11:11

     I would to begin with what the number 1 represents. The number 1 is a very powerful number. It is the base number and is the multiple of all numbers. It represents the drive to initiate and impel things forward. It also represents the sun and the intellect, and is considered masculine. When the number 1 represents people they are usually leaders, bosses, pioneers, visionaries, or even poor listeners. The number 1 can also come across as dominant, or aggressive. There is also some key elements and attributes to this number. The keyword for this number is “courage.” The key symbol is a flame. The number 1 is a strong independent symbol that represents a true channel for the Word of the Creator. Some of the attributes for this number is strong willpower, determination, originality, independence, leadership, pioneering spirit, and unique individuality. Other people who represent the number 1 are sometimes loners, people who are ahead of their time and people who love starting new things and have fresh ideas.             

     I would now like to explain the angelic meaning and the sequence of the number. Since the number is showing up as “11:11” I will first begin by giving the angelic meaning of the number 1. The angelic meaning for the number 1 is: “Stay Positive. Everything you’re thinking about right now is coming true, so be sure that you’re only thinking about what you desire. Give any fears to God and the angels.” Now the sequence could be this meaning times four which is very powerful. But it could also represent the number 11. The angelic meaning for the number 11 is: “Your thoughts are materializing rapidly, so you want to ensure positive outcomes by focusing only on the good within yourself, others, and this situation.” The sequence could also be this meaning times two which is still very powerful. This sequence could also mean 1 plus 11 if you see it as 1:11. Either way you look at this is a very positive and uplifting message being sent to from either your guides, the angels, God, or from all them. They just want you to know that everything is ok and all is going as planned.  As long as you continue to think and manifest good/positive things then you will receive those things. So as long as you see this number just remember that you’re on the right track and everything is ok. 

     This is basically showing that new things are approaching, and they are good and positive energies. This is also a message that your spirit guides and guardians are near you. I also personally take this as a sign that I am on the right path!!